After growing up in patriarchal conditioning and chronic trauma, I've lost touch with my true self and buried her pain, strengths, and highest potential deep down. For most of my life, I lived identified with the Survival Personality, whose temporary job to protect turned into an end goal and a fight for its own survival.

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Like many women, to survive in a society driven by power, ambition, competition, and perfectionist ideals, I had to sacrifice my true nature and feminine values in order to take on a more masculine role and expression of Self. Feminine values, such as vulnerability, intuition, and sacredness of the body, were shut down to give way to mind, reasoning, and power. As a Highly Sensitive Person turned Stronger-than-anyone-I-knew, I suffered internal chaos while re-traumatizing the True self. 

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Does this sound familiar? 

 

HAVE AN ACCUMULATION OF EFFECTS FROM PATRIARCHAL CONDITIONING, GENERATIONS OF POOR MOTHERING, AND CHILDHOOD TRAUMA MADE YOU FEEL OVERWORKED, UNDERVALUED AND INSUFFICIENTLY IN TOUCH WITH YOUR OWN BODY TO KNOW WHAT IS RIGHT FOR YOU?

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Have you, too, lived your life with a MIND OVER MATTER patriarchal mindset, kept choosing the mind (masculine) and pushing your feminine “matter,” your body, for one more year and then one more until your body started to scream for attention through a malfunction, a burnout, relationship failure or loss of any kind. The wake-up call, the rock bottom, the Phoenix Process, whatever you want to call it, forces us to slow down and listen until we finally hear a different voice emerging:

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HELP! I can’t do this any longer. I am begging you. See me!! I can’t pretend to be someone I am not. I can’t continue to live a life prescribed by society that is led by wounded masculine energy to tell me who I should be, what I should do, and how I should look in order to be happy, pretty, or successful. 

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In childhood, the absolute need to feel loved takes precedence at the expense of authentic identity and self-worth. As young girls, we were taught, both directly and indirectly, that pleasing others over being authentic and performing for others rather than being honest are what will get us the love we desire. At the most critical age, self-consciousness was born at the expense of self-confidence, and we learned to judge ourselves as the world judged us against the impossible ideal. In trying to reach this ideal, we silenced many parts of ourselves, with our body becoming the object we can use, manipulate and exploit.

 

We must not show who we truly are, how we honestly feel, and what is our authentic opinion. Because if we do - we are to be banned from the garden of Eden. Do you see how deep this story goes?

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Women have been oppressed and repressed for centuries. And if you are reading this, you have already started to awaken and question the old norms and ways of being. You might have accomplished everything you set your mind to and did everything society prescribed as a recipe for success and happiness. Despite being such a "good girl" at climbing the ladder, you have found yourself climbing the wrong wall!

 

 "Who am I? And Is this all there is?" we start to ask ourselves. 

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The short answer is - No. That was just one part of the journey. The next stage is - finding out who you truly are and bringing all those exiled parts back to Self.

 

At Luminous Pause, we learn to give love where love is due. Together, we will learn not to be afraid of intimacy and vulnerability, to explore the unseen, our shadow, and to awaken the mystical and mysterious parts of ourselves and life. We will co-create a space where your innate wisdom and inner healer feel safe to come forward to show you the way through darkness so we can discover how brightly you can shine! 

 

Women who are drawn to my energy are aware, sensitive, courageous, wise, and kind. And done! Done with playing small, pleasing others and society, and done with dressing up in clothes that no longer fit. 

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ARE YOU READY TO LET GO OF THE OLD AND SAY YES TO YOUR SOUL?

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